“All I ever wanted was to reach out and touch another human being— not just with my hands, but with my heart.”
— Tahereh Mafi, Shatter me
I’ve noticed a feeling of sadness within myself that until recently I hadn’t quite realised the cause.
I think it’s loneliness.
Now I should be clear, my sadness will pass. I’m not afraid to be alone, and most days I absolutely love it. I’ve lived solo now for almost a year—but it is the longest time I’ve ever lived alone.
At times I feel like it’s absurd to entertain the idea that I would feel alone. I have been so privileged to have an amazing family who love and support me, friends and colleagues that are always happy to listen, and be heard.
But despite our ever connected world, there are days, and sometimes weeks where that doesn’t feel like it’s enough. I think through my journey of self-discovery and self-improvement I’ve come to realise that quality, close friendships are incredibly important to me. And that maybe I don’t prioritise building upon those relationships enough.
I don’t want realising the importance of friendships like that to result in a sense of neediness or urgency, and instead motivate building relationships of quality through shared experiences and moments of vulnerability.
I hope by being candid in my emotions I can help others realise you aren’t alone in your loneliness.
If you feel stuck, reach out to me on Twitter or Instagram (@heyfuturejesse). I’m always happy to chat.
P.S. I made a spoken version of this Blog Post, which you can find here.